From the recording Le Goût du Risque
Lyrics
Hook:
Wish I could let go pain I been holding on for so long
Times already changed ice in veins I can't go on
Heart weighing heavy dreams is dead now your soul gone
If love don't save me soon I'll join you where your soul gone
Verse:
I been sleeping with regrets they whisper loud and now I can't move
Ghosts sit at dinner table passing plates I used to tend to
Mama said to pray but I don't think he hear the sinful
Steady scribble psalms with my own blood to leak on instrumentals
I had to bury brothers some of who became my enemies
Toasting to the void this loyalty killing me tenderly
Silk drapes over scars praying that this blade would finish me
Keep burners on the bedside god don't provide indemnity
Suffocate in blackened haze no white flags I would wave
Cash earn curses every blessing I had snatched away
Past men surface shadows of those I had to slay
Half dead working still got demons that'll match the pay
Ash on the marble glass full of guilt I'm drowning in
Suffered many losses it's a jinx if I should count the wins
If the dead become angels is it God's fault I can't love again
Used to breaking bread now I break down when the night begins
Hook:
Wish I could let go pain I been holding on for so long
Times already changed ice in veins I can't go on
Heart weighing heavy dreams is dead now your soul gone
If love don't save me soon I'll join you where your soul gone